So today officially marks 34 weeks...deep breath...that means that I have exactly 5 weeks until delivery date! I am both excited and terrified by this. As you all know by now, I'm terribly neurotic and I worry way to much about everything! My latest internal and, who am I kidding, external, breakdowns have been about how maybe I'm just not cut out to be a mother of two. I mean, people are pregnant all the time and lots of people have been chasing after a toddler or two while doing it, but why do I find it so hard?! I've been tired, grumpy, stressed, and a lot overwhelmed the last few weeks. The first 6 months I really felt like a model pregnant woman, calm, collected and ready for baby...but lately, not so much. I think a lot of it stems from our continuing sleep battle with Sophia, but a lot of it is also just my general neuroses coming into play! Overall, I know it will be fine and once the baby arrives, everything will work out. I continue to tell myself this in hopes that one day I'll believe it! ;) In the meantime I have definitely taken Kathleen's advice and resorted to ice cream as much as possible.
As far as Spud's progress everything looks great! I went to the doctor again yesterday and we will have one more 2-week visit and then we're going to every week. The heartbeat was great and Baby is head-down. Now, I know that this is perfectly normal and acceptable, but since Sophia never achieved this head-down status, I am totally fascinated by it! I'm just sort of in awe that it's following directions and getting ready! It has not, however, chosen to slow down in the slightest bit. I kind of hoped that with space getting tighter in there it might choose to move less,
ummmm, no. The past few nights I have literally gasped in pain/shock when it feels like it's doing crazy flips and turns in there...and it's not just once. It usually lasts for 1-3 hours and I must admit, it gets a little annoying. But...then again, I think it might be better than having Sophia's head permanently stuck in my esophagus so I shouldn't complain! Additionally, the pressure on my bladder has very significantly increased and this kid knows exactly where to kick to make Momma run to the nearest restroom! This, compared to my first pregnancy, is also a new development. I, of course, felt pressure with Sophia but this is very different. I'm sure it has to do with the positioning of the babies,
ie: head down, but
wowser, I had no idea!
Finally, the update on my
PUPP (pregnancy rash) is that I am now taking steroids. After last weekend where I made myself and my husband miserable with my constant state of scratching I have asked for a prescription and began taking them this morning. My doctor assures me it will help and so I'm ready because this itching business is for the birds! Sophia had even started lifting up my shirt for me and scratching my belly randomly throughout the day...a sure sign that I needed some relief!
The nursery is basically done. There are a few odds and ends that I need to do, but nothing major. The pictures are hung, the bed is made, the clothes are put away (at least the yellow and green ones!) and it's all ready for Baby. I must post pictures soon, I just keep forgetting. In fact, I need to get around to posting pics of all our new furniture and room arrangements. These last five weeks are going to be a whirlwind, I'm sure of it! We have lots of birthdays and social
engagements coming up, not the least of which is Sophia's 2
nd birthday...
AAAACK! With all of this activity I shouldn't even have time to worry about anything else...right?!